just in case anyone has considered antidepressants, i wish to offer a word of encouragement. i struggled with the thought of taking them for about 2 years. when it got bad enough a couple of months ago that i was considering quitting my job and ending my relationship, and i was angry and cynical all the time, and i had resigned from my responsibilities at church, i started to doubt that my life would ever be happy again. i've now been on zoloft for about 7 weeks, and all i can say is "what a difference." colors are brighter, i'm laughing at jokes, i'm more relaxed, i'm happier, and the little things that used to eat away at me no longer bother me. i break out singing at odd moments - and i'm feeling much younger and happier, almost bubbly. at the same time, i don't think that my personality is any different - i am still "me." i'm back to the "me" i was several years ago. sure, people still do things that irritate me, but i don't become consumed by it, i can let the little things go now. i still haven't told my family about it - so i know there's shame in using antidepressants, but i just wanted to say that i'm glad i talked to my doctor about it.